In The Return of The Gaze

lost and found

2011-11-19T11:33:00.002+08:00

lost a lot of things

found peace

Pray everyday that Allah cure me from sadness and emptiness, and make sleep peacefully at night.

It's been 2 months and 4 Days.

Hello..

2011-04-21T13:38:00.002+08:00

Just came here to pay a visit.

How are you doing bloggie?

Should I revive you back?

1.39pm

In need of more Paramore.

2010-10-24T21:47:00.004+08:00

It has been 5 days. I still got a hangover.

It was a great great great night!

Please come back. I have never feel so alive for a long time.

..and Hayley, she's amaaaazing.

I hate you.

2010-10-10T12:20:00.001+08:00

I HATE YOU JUNHYUNG Y MUST U BE THIS HOT

*run away*

weekend is good indeed

2010-09-27T02:15:00.002+08:00

well i say..pure relaxing and therapeutic

The thing is..

2010-09-07T11:18:00.005+08:00

I never like yellow.

I detest the color yellow!

I never have...yellowish stuff!!

Yellow reminds me of corn ( but I don't hate corn! yes i'm not making sense)

I don't know what happened today.

yes my lame attempt/excuse to post my own picture.

oh hello bloggie, you miss me? Going to make a makeover on you one day

I MAKE EVERYTHING YELLOW MUAHAHA

ok ignore me , i kinda just miss this place :P

xoxo chuck

My first K-Pop encounter Part 3 : The fansigning event

2010-09-07T10:07:00.005+08:00

Yes, I almost forgot to update this. Nak update pun dah basi buuut..takper alang alang dah buat karangan sampai several parts huu, I think I better finished it. Wait I even forgot the details of the fansigning. Well...let me see what I remember..

Me and Alia Dooseob gift! I want to give it directly to Doojoon and Yoseob, like a pair doodolls like this, but it got taken away by their staff. I hope you guys got it huu. ( lol we even make a card that compile all the dooseob's fan message from other part of the world

I realised my two bias didn't sit besides each other. Huu my Dooseob paparazzi radar just drop another level. Uaa. Ok, first I pass Junhyung. While signing the cd I was like, SHIT HE IS FREAKING HOT IN PERSON WHAT IS THIS SMIRK YOU JUST GAVE ME!! Seriously fangirling in my head because...OMG IT'S JUNHYUNG OKAY!!Then I pass Dongwoon, and he smiled, maknae is so handsome and he keeps on smiling to everyone. Too bad I can't recalled my moment with AJ because..

Damn as soon I saw Doojoon ( who is sitting besides AJ ), I was like..omg this is they guy who's been dubbed as the "Nation Idol Boyfriend" or something. I tell you Doojoon is so handsome, good looking, flawless, perfect, SO GENUINELY NICE AND FRIENDLY we even chat a bit ( although I can't remember wth we were chatting about but he kept on saying thank you) and I'm trying my best not to stare at his V-Neck shirt nggghhh. I think I kinda stand in front of Doojoon for quite sometimes because he is the most interactive member ( or maybe I'm just amazed on how good looking he is huuu >__> ). Then the guard ask me to move so I walk in front of Hyunseung ( I remember he already has his pixie hair with that tiny hair band) so freaking pretty and gorgeous! Last but not least, I finally arrived in front of my no 1 bias, the ever perfect,adorable, sweet cutie pie Yang Yoseob. He is so polite and soft spoken. LOL I think I said something in Korea ( Alia teached me but I forgot it now) but something like "Yoseob, I adore you, you're my favourite" or something like that? OMG ok now it sounds cheesy ( but I hope it doesn't sound cheesy in hanggul kut) then he kept on saying thank you and smile.Everything went so fast, we can't even shake hands which is not fair ( which I don't actually mind too because of the thought that I'm going to see them during the fan meet and greet session)

However, I do end up skipping like a silly fangirl as soon I got my signed CD aaaa what is this what have you guys done i'm a freaking adult okay *is embarassed thinking about it now* but what I never know is that the next day I will end up like a crazy happy fangirl, much worse than this. Yes I am such a major failure uaa -___-''

will update later about the greet and meet session ( which I don't know when huu)

My first K-Pop encounter Part 2 : The showcase

2010-07-06T16:23:00.019+08:00

Ok yeah then we are finally in, and found a good spot on the left side of the stage, 4 rows from the stage. There's this big tv screen in front of us ( which I thought it's good because we can watch the boys from the tv if it's in case we can't clearly see them on the stage) While waiting for the crowd to fill the hall, Cube's MV were played on the tv screen, first I think is Shock. We were these kraaazy fangirls/fanboys singing to along the song LOL alongside with other Beast MV ( Bad Girl, Say No) ~~and 4 minute FML~~ ~~o yeah~~.

So when the boys come out, O__O sayer tidak terkata gembiranyer. Busy taking pictures and fancams. The boys are :') aaaaa I got to see them live!! Saya dah tak larat nak spazz but I totally enjoying it, I mean..HEY THAT IS THEM LIVE ON THE STAGE ! Have been oggling about them on the net, watching MVs, performance, reality shows and stuff, so seeing the live is all sort of surreal.

Almost all the boys came on the left side of the stage, Except for Yoseob bb. Hyunseung came to our side most of the times ( and I even got a good fancam of him, fancam sangat daebak I love it ^^) Too bad there's no Dooseob ( there is but I dodn't got a chance to witness it)

I LOVE THIS FANCAM OF MINE BECAUSE OF HYUNSEUNG :')

The only annoying part is..ok I don't mind the pushing the pulling ( and the screaming too) I mean well what do you expect from a K-pop showcase full with fangirls but ughhh..this girl in front of me, her hair! it keep on brushing my face sangat distracting. Die macam..melekat kat muke saya yang dah oily ni. Serabut seh..

Pictures spamming jelah ye. But most are not mine ( since my picture turn out to be shitty quality eventhough pakai Canon yaa). I fully credit the owner of the picture, is just thatI forgot where did I get all of this pictures from. Sorry >.<

Dooseob heee ^^

Junhyung sangat hott ok and maknae Dongwoon is flawless and so good looking!

Yoseob comel sangat in person! nak picit pipi dia XP

This is mine..the quality kinda suck >.<

o hay leader! fixing your hair I see *roll eyes*

those two maknae were doing selca on stage during oasis XP

Doojoon said shoooh! :P

Comel ok. Sangat.

oh em gee guyline kiwi soo pretty ^^

Sangat hott apakah !! Ugh Junhyung

maknae Dongwoonie!!

Ok too many photo spamming so I decide to post the fansigning part in the next post ( lol which I don't know when >.<) . Tungguuu...

My first K-Pop encounter Part 1 : Getting in Line for the showcase

2010-07-06T10:49:00.016+08:00

Beast is my first K-POP experience weeehee!! :D

Well.. actually I have ~~incoherently spazzed~~ typed about this event in other forum, but then suddenly I decided that I need to report/or write this sweet awesome memory here too, in my own blog , because it is full with awesome sweet memories and this one need to be included in this blog too. ( walaupun sebenarnyer agak malas nak buat karangan, but I regret not doing that when I watched MCR 3 years ago, so I better typed it down)

So this will be a long 3 part karangan. Brace yourself muahahhah -__-;;

Credits go to ineed-munny.blogspot.com and railroad-of-japan.blogspot.com for the nice pictures ( since I didn't take a lot of pictures and the quality kind of suck)

Waiting in line for Beast Showcase.

WAITING IN LINE IS JUST T_____T aka saya takut nak pergi konsert K-POP

Woke up early, wore my Beast t-shirt and settle all the house chores so my parents tak bising that I'll be missing for that one whole day. Beli breakfast, babysitting dan sebagainya. I was already giddy like ngeeee...jjcxhekqhzuyzui!! Sekian. nervous and excited!!

1.30pm

Arrived at KL LIVE! ( I took Putra LRT and stop at Dang Wangi) and the place is already full! Saw the big banner outside of the building, ok sangat daebak!! Starting to get all excited woot!'

Like I said, the place is already full . Fans were making posters, eating KFC, spazzing, etc etc. I called Kim and finally met her. She was extremely nice and sweet. Spazzing kejap pasal mende2 random and tengok present Dooseob present that me and Alia plan to give ( yes we bought a cute plushies for them kkekke:P). Then we saw a group of girls holding a Beast flag, so kami pun menyibuk bertanya mana kami boleh dapat that cute flag.

Me and my Hyunseung flag that I randomly picked from MyB2uty people

This is Kim. She got Yoseob's flag. Then she even got Junhyung's flag, randomly junper kat maner ntah, not fair aaa :P)

Bak kata Junhyung " We are happiness" -___-''
( yes Junhyung dah merosakkan lagi english saya yang dah sedia rosak)

3.00pm

Around 3 pm, the Universal Music Malaysia representatives (UMM) organize a lucky draw where 150 fans who got to draw a yellow ball from a box ( full with white balls) got a chance to meet the boys at Nikko Hotel on Sunday ( the next day). Haruslah saya cuba nasib kan, dah haruslah saya kene berhimpit dengan budak-budak dan orang ramai untuk tunggu turn. -___- ( the thing that I do for the boys nghh).

Of course this is one of the highlight of the day. The best and daebak thing ever... winning an effing lucky draw ( whoaa, ok whenever i thought about that again I will always end up like this 0__O how can that happened?). When I draw that yellow ball, I just..stare at it, disbelief, whaaaaaat? I didn't even scream, I was so shocked! ( orang-orang belakang yang jerit boleh?). Kesimpulannyer..OMG I GOT TO SEE THE BOYS! AGAIN! TOMORROW! MEET AND GREET! OMG :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WHAAAT IS THIS WOOH!

and after that..

We continue to wait..

Stuck in the middle of a sea of people.

this sea of 2000++ people

( saya tiada si dalam gambar)

Everyone refuse to move anywhere, takut dapat tempat yang tak best dalam hall. So we stand..and stand..panas, diselangi oleh bunyi fangirls screaming (sebab they said Beast sampai dalam van? erk?) stand and wait..stuck...kene tolak skit skit..terpisah from Kim , Bawang and the rest, sedih bosan..tunggu lagi, saya bosan -__-'', I can not move, if I move people will say I'm pushing people, ( even nak amibil air from the bag and even nak makan twiggies Gardenia), my body is distorted in a weird angle. End up chatting with new friends yang stuck around me ( high school kids, university kids (budak UM ), mak orang seriously, FANBOYS COMEL!! ) . Everytime the crowd start to move, saya kena quished, stuck, push, pull oh what the heck. Orang cakap "jangan tolak! Don't push!!" I'm old for this. Can I go to a K-pop concert and skip this queing part?..gila daebak terseksa.

The event sepatutnya start at 7pm. So bila dah 6.30 om tak masuk lagi, I was like...apakah?? I was standing besides the stairs. People from excited dah start merungut. Around 7 .30 pm, people dah start bising. Sorak "refund! refund!" or "We want Beast!! We Want Beast!" or " T-shirt First! T shirt first" ( meaning people who wore Beast t-shirt enter the hall first). Pukul 8pm tak masuk lagi, people dah cranky, boo-ing, and it doesn't help when the UMM people ( yang tak bawak microphone ke apa) start screaming and asked us to calm down. Not helping seriously.

But seriously, UMM you fail ok. Please improve this. Around 8 pm you started to get some girls fainting ( sebab penat and tak makan ok) and the number started to increase. Sucky event management . Nasib baik our small group of people ( I was reunited again Kim and the rest) menepek tepi tangga dan cuba menceriakan hati sambil menyanyi lagu K-pop seperti Big Bang, Beast, T-ara dsb untuk menghilangkan tension.

Pintu masuk sangat kecik boleh? Pastu kena panjat tangga pulak tu. Imagine 2000++ people -__-''

Around 8.40 pm I think, finally the crowd start to move. Sangat terseksa my goodness, there was no line, we were pushed and squished ( boleh kurus macam ni T__T) , and people semua berkerumun kat tangga kecik tu. Body guard screaming, muka fans sorang sorang macam nak nangis bila dapat panjat naik tangga. I almost lose my shoes ok. 37 peoples faint. O yeahh..it's K-POPs showcase woot! Konsert MCR and P!ATD pun tak se-daebak ni key. Tetiba teringat kalau kawan-kawan saya yang lain datang, I can guarantee that they won't stand it.

So akhirnya dah dapat masuk. Kawan saya yang jalan dengan saya menangis-nangis, siap ada cameraman nak rakam muka die but I shoved the camera. Dramatic kan? Macam K-pop jugak. Sigh..

But of course...as soon as we got in, we totally forgot about what had happened before :)

New obsession

2010-07-06T10:06:00.009+08:00

It looks like I'll be coming here almost once a month, dusting the blog with some random/short updates. Kekke..I'm not sure if anyone ever come here an read anymore. Shit I almost want to start rambling about how this place used to be my happy place and stuff , I even scanned old post/friends' comment here, kenapalah aku pandai sangat, now I feel like crying :PP Geez, and talking about crying..my emotional, melancholic level nowadays is just whoaa..i don't even know. Rasa nak lempang diri sendiri.

Ok I told you I'm rambling ok bye bye..

Dusting My Blog Pt 2

2010-06-15T12:40:00.016+08:00

awesome b'day present.
Going to watch Beast live on 26th June. Thank you guys :')

bye old room :'(

Hi new room ^^
No pervert stalker and finally sleeping on a bed.
Even have my own toilet and shower room

i miss.. :')

OTP is still cute as ever.
My personal happy virus.

with Anis ^^.
..cos we miss our morning walk

Lookout Point, Hulu Langat. Gemini boys birthday

yoseob..hope someone will take care of you

the real yoseob (with new hair), hope doojoon will take care of you *gets bricked*
:P

going to work..ta

-fin-

Dusting my blog

2010-06-15T12:34:00.002+08:00

12.36 noon

I'm bored. I just lose my antibiotic data that I have been working on for the past few weeks. Now I have to start everything from scratch again.

Doing nothing. Just reading horoscopes.

I miss my friends and family. I'm sleepy. I don't have mood.

Yes I'm rambling.

..o yes I missing my OTP too.

ok wth

*finish dusting*

Get well soon bb

2010-05-18T13:29:00.006+08:00

He's been sick for almost a month now. T__T
..finally admitted himself to hospital because of severe exhaustion, and even loss his voice.
I really can't be a K-pop fan I worried easily. Aigoo
Please stay healthy..funshine. Missing you guys already.

O hay there ^^

2010-05-18T12:43:00.004+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .......... I used to rule this blog!!!!

(yelaa yelaa..)

Wrooom nom nom nom nom nom (part 2)

2010-05-12T17:30:00.002+08:00

....

7 Breathtaking Aquariums Around The World

2010-05-05T16:49:00.003+08:00

I found this post and I was like :O

Breathtaking indeed

This is number 1. Guess where?

3 years in Taiping

2010-05-04T12:29:00.003+08:00

Why am I still stuck here?

Because..god knows how much I love those gorgeous trees and pretty sky and all.
Keep telling this to yourself and everything will be ok.

Peek #6

2010-04-29T13:03:00.001+08:00

Benda pertama budak comel ni cari bile sampai LA..

Donut

=)

Peek #5

2010-04-28T11:44:00.002+08:00

Somedays all I do is watch the sky

Happy Birthday smiling angel

2010-04-26T22:48:00.003+08:00

Noona heart you, always will be

=)

A (decent) motivational spanking post

2010-04-22T09:48:00.008+08:00

Nope. Nothing involving pretty Korean boys.
Let's be ~~boring &~~ serious this time.

10 Benefits of Positive Thinking

Positive thinking makes a big difference in our lives. The only thing is you never should force yourself to think positive. Instead adapt to this style of thinking by practicing until it becomes a habit. Forcing yourself leads to extra stress that none of us need!

I’ve made this list to help you see the benefits of positive thinking. These 10 benefits go hand and hand. One benefit leads to another. Let’s take a look at them now.

Beat Stress
The first benefit of positive thinking is that it helps you overcome stress since you’ll be handling situations in a positive manner. You’ll be able let go of things that you usually get frustrated or worried about. Positive thinking helps you realize and understand that feeling those negative emotions leads to nowhere.

Remember, positive thinkers see the solutions, not just the the problems. When you get over things and focus on the solution, you’re less likely to stress about it.

More Energy
When you have less stress and worries in your life, you have extra energy to do the things you love. Sometimes our mind is the reason for our fatigue. Stressing and not being able to see the brighter side of life drains our energy. We feel tired, moody, and less interested in the things we love so much. Get energized by simply changing the way you think!

Deeper Relationships
The truth is people love positive people. It’s much easier to connect with positive people.

Incorporating positive thinking in your life not only helps build deeper relationships with people, but positive relationships with people. Positive relationships are built on support, trust, and understanding which makes the quality of these relationships much better.

Now let’s see, who would you be more open with? A positive thinker who supports you or someone negative that puts down your ideas and criticizes you? I think we all know the answer to that one.

Peace of Mind
Positive thinking will have you looking at the positive side of life. Your mind will relax and your thoughts will calm down. Instead of your thoughts running wild to make sure everything turns out okay, your thoughts will be much more relaxed because you’ll believe that everything is okay. And if things don’t turn out for the best, it won’t matter because you’ll have the ability to turn that negative into a positive.

You’ll be Organized
When I go into a house that’s messy and cluttered, I believe it’s a reflection of how the person thinks.

You see, once you clear your mind of all the unnecessary thoughts and become organized with your thinking, your environment becomes organized too. Less stress, clear thinking, and more energy are all benefits of positive thinking! So instead of just taking off your clothes and leaving them on the ground, you’ll actually have the energy to pick them up and hang it.

Healthier Lifestyle
Our thinking directly affects our bodies and how it functions.

Negative thinking makes the whole body weak and fragile. All that stress, worrying, and nonsense thinking leads to headaches, sleeping disorders, muscle tensions, anxiety, and fatigue.

I actually remember working with a 50 year old lady that looked like she was in her 30’s. I asked, “What’s your secret?” She replied back, “It’s simple, I always smile!” She pushes the problems aside and just focuses on being happy.

Fortunate
Positive things happen to positive people. I remember a guy that lost his job right after buying a home but he didn’t seem too worried. Right after that happened, he won a little over a million dollars!

Be positive for a whole day and see all the good that comes to you.

Fear Goes Away
Fear is the killer of all dreams. It will hold you back, it will make you stress, and it will turn something good into something bad.

Becoming a positive thinker eliminates fear. When you know for certain in your mind that you can turn burdens into blessings, you’ll have nothing to fear. You see, all our emotions are created by what we think. Fear comes from thinking about the negative. Give fear a kick in the butt by thinking positive.

Create More Time
Who wouldn’t love more time especially in today’s world? Positive thinking gives you just that. How exactly will you create more time?

You’ll create more time because you won’t be stuck thinking about every problem you have in your life. You’ll learn to get over it and find what you need to do to be happy instead.

When you start using your mind right, you can wake up earlier since you’ll be sleeping better. You can make decisions faster. You’ll be more organized all around. You’ll love life because life is good when you have enough “you time”.

Fulfilling Life
A positive state of mind creates positive emotions. Positive emotions creates a positive lifestyle. What would you rather have? Being happy all the time or feeling angry constantly?

Ask yourself that question and from today on, make the decision to use positive thinking in your life everyday to enjoy these benefits and more!

Taken from betrulyhappy.com

Yes...must feel motivated.

~~46 days more aaaaaaaaaa!~~

Peek #4

2010-04-21T12:39:00.001+08:00

Peek #3

2010-04-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

SHOCK!!

2010-04-16T13:03:00.015+08:00

Ok is this real life? Still dumbfounded.

I'll be attending Poprainbow Hi-Tea with Beast ( yes I finally got to meet them, SHOCK-ing right?) on 5th June 2010 at Prince Hotel, KL. Yes they're coming to Malaysia.

OMG. Ok is this real life? I keep on saying this. I've got to choose any Hi-Tea table ( with any Beast member). Since Yoseob sangat famous and meja dier penuh cepat (jeles), I end up sitting with Junyummie aka Nagging Devil with the other 7 people who are paying for the VVIP ticket. The ticket price is just -__-, ok sayer tanak pikir dah, sayer dah bayar.

Aahhh Junhyung! Macam mana saya nak makan kalau kamu satu meja ngan sayer.

Yoseobie..I still wanna sit with you, tapi bagus jugak tak dapat. Noona takut noona spazzing tak boleh makan. Then security guard heret keluar. Kekkeke. Takperlah, sayer duduk ngan Junhyung. At least I can witness myself macam maner dier ~~membebel~~ bercakap dengan seksinye ( eventhough I can't imagine how the comunication will happen, asal sorang pun takleh cakap english! Marah ni! I'm heartsick ok! /kene baling batu)

I'll still wanna sit at the same table with you sob .

AAAAA STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I"M GOING TO SEE YOU GUYS!.
Ok tanak over excited nanti tetibe tak jadi ke, postponed ke. Ahh perlu bertenang ini nssk

Sorry for the incoherent post. Still hard to believe this 0__0

Cats vs Cute boys

2010-04-09T13:41:00.001+08:00

the cat wins at life

Visit

Cute boys with cats

Vroooooooooomm!

2010-04-06T20:11:00.019+08:00

Last Saturday, I've joined the rest of 17 peoples (mostly new friends) for a great ATV ride at ATV Adventure Park in Kemensah ( not far from Zoo Negara).

ATV : All-Terrain Vehicle and you can click here for more info ;)

It was my first time riding an ATV so of course I was so nervous. To be honest, I was more nervous of pacat and lintah more than anything else.

Conclusion?

It was fun, scary, gayat WOOO!!, Aaaaaa aaa aku raser macam ATV ni nak terbalik, nak tahan ngan kaki tapi tak sampai ;P, OMG aku lagi sikit nak terjun cerun sebab helmet tersangkut kat dahan pokok aaa pokok ko sangat tak lawak ok penat je aku lukis ko banyak-banyak(apekah), ohh ATV sayer stuck dalam mud/tanak naik bukit so vrrooom VRROOM!! tekan minyak kuat kuat! Yaaaa..turun cerun sangat gayat brek brek breeekkk!!

Lepas habis.... APAKAH SAYA NAK MAIN LAGI!! Sayer nak beli ATV satu bawak pi ofis!

Yes. That kind of ride. It was really a bumpy ride, segala batu and akar pokok hentam langgar. However, the highlight of the day is when we got to stop at this beautiful waterfall (they call it Air terjun Sofea Jane, kononnyer dier pernah berlakon kat situ for this one movie call Bisikan Cinta) and mandi manda for almost 1 hour before we went back to the ATV station.

Here are some more piccis ( tapi banyak gambar sebelum and selepas, it's hard to take a picture while you're riding that thing)

wah wah daebak tak!! ;P

If you guys are interested, do check this site or click the picture below to see the available package.

We took package C and I think it was worth it. Although it said 1 1/2 hour to 2 hour, we spend most of the morning session doing the activity. Starting from 9 am ( training and familiarising with the vehicle, jungle trecking, mandi air terjun, balik using the same route), we arrive back at the station around 1.15 pm if i'm not mistaken. So it was like, 4 hours!.

Finally, it was a fun experience and everyone need to try this at least ONCE! I kid you not, even for the faint hearted. Tengok macam kawan sayer Cik Surie. Saya bangga ngan kamu hahahhaha ;P ( ye saye nampak kamu nak terbalik and nak tahan ATV ngan kaki. Ye aku pun buat macam tu har har har ;P)

Oh yeah, before I forgot,the downturn is that (as what I've expected), I suffered sakit pinggang, tangan, bahu, even pelvic 0__0 saye jalan macam tak betul huu. I can't even cross my leg properly.Hope to recover from this soon.

Picture: Credit to Ms Dodie Mokhlis

Post full of love and adorableness ;)

2010-04-05T21:04:00.006+08:00

Love and Adorableness
<3

F U April Fool

2010-04-01T16:55:00.007+08:00

I have a mind-boggling/blowing day today it's not even funny.
Seriously I hate April fool now it's not even funny.
I feel kind of lame for even freaking out about some korean guys who don’t even know I exist.
I will forever remember this day.

ugh ... JUST UGH!!!

That virus "kencing tikus"..

2010-03-31T16:26:00.006+08:00

...we call it Leptospirosis.

Read Fact and Info on Leptospirosis

~~Damn dah la saya nak gi mandi sungai this weekend~~

Poor him. I'm not a fan but I know that the disease can be pretty nasty.
I heard the news that his internal organs have shut down and he bleeds internally D:
It stated that the survival chance is 50/50 and the doc gave him 24-48 hours.
Let's pray that everything will go well for him.

Extra info: Do you know that all PLKN camps now are needed to send their pool/river sample for Leptospirosis investigation before they start with the program?

Diggin' my own grave

2010-03-30T17:32:00.001+08:00

ok sakit kepala kejap

Green sky

2010-03-30T17:18:00.003+08:00

I'm obsessed with trees again.
Saya nak round Tasik Taiping sekarang.

I LOL aka Rock, Paper and Scissor

2010-03-29T14:30:00.003+08:00

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i feel like a proud mama here

2010-03-25T23:47:00.020+08:00

25th March is definitely a glorious day woot! Beast is the first k-pop group that I've followed from the start ( starting from adoring the cutie blonde hair Yang Yoseob, and then the royal cute/hot pairing DooSeob yang masih membuat sayer pening and weng sampai sekarang, and now I end up liking each one of them because they are so well rounded (vocals, dancing) and so freaking lovable <3), Considering the fact that they were often called a bunch of rejects ( failed solo project, disbanded idol groups, an almost Big Bang and 2PM/2AM member), it is so nice to see them succeed. Yes, eventhough it's merely 1 point different from 2AM and it's just a weekly music chart, but it definitely will mean something to the boys. I think the fact I've been able to see them grow and work so hard for their dreams makes it even more beautiful to see them win ♥

There was so much love on that stage. 2AM, MBLAQ, Surpreme Team looked so happy for them ;D. This encore vid is one of the most heartwarming things I've seen.

Boys perform Shock and they did great as usual. Sorry M-net but the sound sucked. Even YangYo sounds so loud ugh. I prefer inkigayo more.

And for the first time ever, looking sharp and neat with suits and ties, they cover a ballad song called "Despite Holding On" . Though the sound quality wasn't so good ( and then the fangirl screaming and everything, too bad ughh) their performance was brilliant and yes Yang Yoseob sounds amazing as usual.

Ok now pictures of boys crying uhuk. Those tears just made my heart melt. I feel like a proud mama or something lol.

surprise bb!

and why I'm not surprised. Our softie Yoon Doojoon leader huhuu..
( it's good to see his Hot Blood brothers with him, and you still looks hot eventhough you cry )

Surprise surprise! Bad ass Junhyung aka THE nagging devil..is crying d'awww

awwww boys

Ok how can I not love this boys. Aigoo :')

DORKS ON THE LOOSE aka YOSEOB IS BEING BULLIED AGAIN, AND HE LOVES IT
p/s: Hyung, G.O and his mustache is SAVE!!

Useless Trees

2010-03-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

I love having two blogs

2010-03-24T11:11:00.019+08:00

One of the reasons is...

I have more space to spam pictures of my current favourite boys aaa *get bricked*

:B

BIAS #1

(since Yang Yoseob is my Bias #1 from Beast so he'll get more space here)

O hay there ;)

Did I tell you that he has such an angelic voice and (gasp!) smile too?

This noona melt into a puddle of goo. Heeeehee..

BIAS #2
Yoon Leadah!

Since his is Alia's so I can't spazz much.

but I can drool
:Q________

Yes it hit my heart bb aaaa ;D

Trying to get my painting muse back.

2010-03-23T00:21:00.004+08:00

ahhh ;DDDDD

I finally painting again. Well I hope it doesn't stop here.

This is pretty tense

2010-03-22T11:44:00.002+08:00

..but EPIC. Check this out.

True Fact

2010-03-22T09:52:00.001+08:00

Malaria is the 5th cause of death from infectious diseases worldwide (after respiratory infections, HIV/AIDS, diarrheal diseases, and tuberculosis).

Alice In Wonderland

2010-03-21T20:14:00.007+08:00

I just saw the film.

Everytime I see The White Queen

my head scream "LADY GAGA!!"

YES! I know someone will do this.

Read

I just finished watching Glee

2010-03-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

Guess which one is my favourite?
.
.
.
.
.

Surprise!!! Not. ;P

Wrooom nom nom nom nom nom

2010-03-19T15:37:00.002+08:00

Make me this and I'll love you forever.

Peek #2

2010-03-18T00:59:00.003+08:00

^picture

peek

2010-03-08T11:41:00.002+08:00

Colours

2010-02-22T10:20:00.003+08:00

I guess, all I need is a new place, a new environment..

a new blog.

Colours, like you and me

Bye bloggie, it's been a good time. ;' )

ダンス・ダンス・ダンス, Dansu dansu dansu II

2010-02-19T10:24:00.000+08:00

“

Humans achieve their peak in different ways. But whoever you are, once you’re over the summit, it’s downhill all the way. Nothing anyone can do about it. And the worst of it is, you never know where the peak is. You think you’re still going strong, when suddenly you’ve crossed the great divide. No one can tell. Some people peak at twelve, then lead rather uneventful lives from then on. Some carry on until they divide. No one can tell. Some people peak at twelve, then lead rather uneventful lives from them on. Some carry on until they die, some die at their peak. Poets and composers have lived like furies, pushing themselves to such a pinch they’re gone by thirty. Then there are those like Picasso, who kept breaking ground until well past eighty.

And what about me?

My peak? Would I ever have one? I hardly had had anything you could call a life. A few ripples. Some rises and falls. But that’s it. Almost nothing. Nothing born of nothing. I’d loved and been loved, but I had nothing to show. It was a singularly plain, featureless landscape. I felt like I was in a video game. A surrogate Pacman, crunching blindly through a labyrinth of dotted lines. The only certainty was my death.

”

—	Page 210, Dance Dance Dance by Murakami, Haruki

Peluk-bantal-dan-guling-worthy song

2010-02-11T22:03:00.005+08:00

Let's pretend baby
That you've just met me
And I've never seen you before

I'll tell all my friends
That I think you're staring
And you say the same
To yours

And Oh
We'll dance around it all night
And then I'll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy who needs to pretend
But because
It's so funny let's just think about it honey
Let's just fall in love again

I'll call you in three days
Not too soon not too late
And I'll ask your roommate if you're home

Oh

You'll call me on Thursday
And we'll hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And Oh
I'll hold your hand when we drive
And we'll lose track of all the time
And we'll tell everyone that we ain't never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy who needs to pretend
But because
It's so funny let's just think about it honey
Let's just fall in love again

We'll fall disgustingly fast
And we'll stop hanging out with friends
And they'll be so offended

Oh ooh oh

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don't have to try
It's so easy who needs to pretend
But because
It's so funny let's just think about it honey
Let's just fall in love again

Let's just fall in love again
So let's just fall in love again

(ahhh pening...who should i blame for all the mushiness lately *staring at those two* , yes you two)

and the clip is sooo sweet

Sexy can I?

2010-02-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

bb is all grown up
sexaay
<3

Re-learned pt 2

2010-02-04T23:45:00.007+08:00

we are our own worst enemy.

Today I met Peggy. 2 years ago she was kinda thin and her hair is longer. Tak perasan that she’s been missing for 1 years and plus. Now, she’s chubbier and her hair pun dah kerinting halus-halus. I almost don’t recognize her. I even ask wether rambut tu rambut CNY ke? She just laugh and then said, “ Ni rambut baru saya laa, sebelum ni sayer punya rambut takder, I have cancer and have to go for chemo and.....” she chats away. Honestly, I’ve read/heard about breast cancer survivor stories from friends and even read it in books and stuff but I never talk directly to one. Peggy seems like she really loves to talk about it. It’s very inspirational, seriously and this kind of thing rarely happen to me. I keep on thinking if I’m in her place, how will I turn out to be.

She told me about the time before the chemo session started, the doctor told her to take 8 pills of steroids every morning and every night, and everytime she took it, she will end up vomiting all the pills, feel very sick and have insomnia. She felt very sick she said her life was so miserable that time. She said she can’t stop thinking about dying and stuff. She was so tired of it so one day she had asked herself, “I haven’t start any Chemo session yet, but why am I like this? Kenapa macam sangat teruk sampai muntah, migrain,tak lalu makan, and demam, macam effect lepas kena chemo?” She realised that she has to do some serious soul searching. She asked herself is it because of the pills or her psychology and her negative thinking that make her suffered that way? She told me during that time she kinda had to brainwashed her mind and had to be strong for herself and block all the negativity from effecting her if she want to get through this easily. She said, “ Kalau saya baru mahu makan steroid pun dah macam ni, nanti bila chemo saya boleh mati woo, tension” and laugh ( i dunno if I should laugh that time too...errk). So with her new way of thinking, she swallow the pills, and yes..nothing happen after that. “ I feel ok! Takde muntah muntah. There’s nothing wrong with the pills. The problem is here” Pointing to her head. Of course there were down time where she needs people to talk and stay strong, but she said "I will never let any negativity or outside voice come into my head, I have to learn to block it, which I know it's not easy, but at least I TRY."

She told me she is one of the happiest person yang selalu datang for chemo treatment and she told me “ Orang ingat saya gila datang jumpa doktor suka suka happy happy” And then she said if I’m not strong, if I don’t brainwashed myself, I won’t be where I am now, datang jual barang lab dekat you. Errkk...boleh la kan? Haha. . Damn I am amazed. She is strong. If I were her, I’ll be moping around like a sick dog. I have normal problems but I always moping around like..that T__T. But she looks so healthy and happy. She doesn’t look like a sick people at all. And she talks about the sickness like it’s the most normal thing in the world. I hope she will stay happy ,healthy and positive that way. I still feel very inspirational. Another quotes she said to me " I love my past, I never regret my past. I've learned a lot from it"

xoxo

Poetry

2010-02-03T09:54:00.008+08:00

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose,topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved, secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

-Pablo Neruda

Thanks twin :)

picture: credit emeraldiris@deviantart

3rd bias: The Nagging Devil

2010-02-02T20:35:00.007+08:00

I can feel you creeping crawling from somewhere.

I hate you.
-__-'

Gaga, MGMT, Maxwell at Grammy Award

2010-02-02T02:06:00.013+08:00

I think I love her even more after following her twitter.

She is so sweet, genuine and sounds so so normal.. Too bad she lose to Taylor "boring" Swift for Best Album of The Year (Travesty seriously). Hopefully next year?

MGMT and Silversun Pickups lose to I don't know who for the Best Act Category. Too bad. Mad talent gone waste nssk nss ( Even our G-Dragon's likes MGMT come on!)
I don't think Andrew likes the red carpet events that much. Poor kid but he'a adorable ;)

But OMG FINALLY, like finally Maxwell wins his first Grammy Award ever ( after 15 years I think) for Best R&B album and Best Male R&B Vocal Performance for Pretty Wings. Although I kinda wish that Pretty Wings win for song of the year ( lose to Beyonce's Single Ladies) but it's better than nothing right?

Ugh I want the HQ performance huu

Oasis

2010-02-01T17:01:00.004+08:00

Already missing you boys <3

First OTP

2010-01-30T01:00:00.005+08:00

1.13 AM : Spring Cleaning

i found this ;)

Gee & Frankie
<3

Ow..OWWW. Headache T__T

2010-01-29T12:25:00.005+08:00

I AM SUCH A DISORGANIZE PERSON RIGHT NOW

Clutter. Mess
I got headache
When I got headache, I got cranky.

Red alarm dah menyala.

A list has been made ( Thank god finally Chuck)

Yes. Major work to do this weekend.

Dear Daesung bb, noona konfius

2010-01-26T13:39:00.016+08:00

First you make me worried about that "Cotton Candy" song title.

Maaad worried ok

Then you came out with this picture

and I was like...

WHATTHEHECKHAVEYOUDONETOYOURHAIR!!!!!!

(OK what's up with BB boys and ahjumma's hair?? First GD and now Daesung?)

Dae, noona tak suka rambut awak tau tak. This is NOT FAMILY OUTING ko nak perm rambut macam Goo Junpyo!! Noona marah ok marah!!! Sayer tahu kamu comel tapi saya nak marah!!! (aperkah sila senyap sekarang)

I want your hair to be like this photoshoot from your new drama "What's Up"

Fierce and hot!

Anyway..

FINALLY! I'VE BEEN WAITING THIS FOR AGES, HIS NEW SONG!

0__0
Ukulele?
50's /retro kinda stuff?

Perlulah lagu Cotton Candy kamu comel macam ni sekali! I didn't expect this seriously. This stuff sounds so cute, relaxing, calming like Jason Mraz or that Jason Castro. I didn't expect this from you Daesung-ie. Ukulele, rainbow, pony, butterfly, it makes you feel fluffy and bubbly inside. I feel like I want to go lay down in some long grass and just watch the clouds all afternoon.

OMG can't stop smiling. The lyrics is just like the song title. Damn sweet lah bb!

Yes it was a bit of a let down that it's not a powerhouse ballad song like what I've expected from him BUT I know he can sing ballad very well ( and I think if he really does ballad we will have a second K.Will too right?), he can carry trot like no one business and now he proves that he can do this ukulele kinda stuff too. Yes, do something different from what K-POP have currently.

One word, we call it versatility. That's why you're my bias boy ( but I still hate your hair sorry bb)

( Too much fluff to handle in one day, I dreamt DooSeob last night and now this???! daymm)

Dinner/Birthday Bash : Green & White at Al-Rawsha

2010-01-25T11:54:00.009+08:00

Thank you for the cake guys :)

aww cecomel semua <3

To Surie, me and my cats love that colourful kipas pusing2 tu.

So we want to say kamsa hamnida surie shii :D

credit: reunion piccis taken from Surie's collection

Even If I Die, I Will Not Let You Go

2010-01-22T08:14:00.006+08:00

Falling in love with their new album
2AM new stuff is so good.

<3

Now all I need is the MV to come out!

Fangirl stalking plan

2010-01-21T11:41:00.027+08:00

Oh, look what we have here.

Stalker map!

XP

First stop, dorm MBLAQ. Make a request to Lee Joon so he lift his shirt up, dan mungkin Shan akan berguling-guling gembira. I might kidnap GO dengan bantuan Zetty hyung ( or at least force him to sing a song for me or that part in G.O.O.D Love)
Singgah dorm Shinee and kidnap Minho. Kene bawak gi dorm 2PM.
Terus pergi dorm T-ara and lempang sorang2 sebab lagu Bo Peep sangat annoying and their costumes are ugly as hell.
Singgah dorm After School sebab nak cakap kat Uee I don't like her (aperkah),
Singgah SNSD and F(x), fangirl revenge >__<. burn burn
Stop by 2 AM dormitory, kidnap Seulong and Jo Kwon.
Mungkin singgah dorm 4 Minute and jumpa Hyunah and say to her : jangan copy Hyori noona and stay away from Junhyung (aperkah)
Singgah dorm Beast. Stalk Yoseob and Doojoon and then WAJIB kidnap diorang dengan bantuan Twin. Wajib! Oh saya nak cubit pipi Yoseob banyak2 kali sampai merah ( ok sorry) dan twin maybe sibuk suruh Doojoon buat bodywave. Kurung Junhyung and Hyunseung dua orang and give a peck at AJ and Dongwoon yang mungkin tengah blur that time.
Next, stop by 2PM dormitory and this is the plan:

Taec: Lukis kucing version kengkawan saya.

Junho : Buat butt dance. Zeti mungkin nak kidnap dia lepas tu.
Junsu: Suruh nyanyi and I wanna check his chin betul ke buat plastic surgery. Paksa Syura berbaik-baik dengan Junsu
Nickhun : Suruh buat aksi sexy dengan Minho
Lepat aka Wouyoung: Wajib kidnap
Chansung : Masuk guni ( dibantu oleh Zeti Nazima)

Mungkin mengambil masa yang lama kat rumah diorang, Syura maybe membuat cubaan untuk kidnap semua dan tinggalkan Junsu sorang2. Maybe paksa members bagi alamat rumah Pink Leadja kat Seattle or his hp number.

Berenang merentasi sungai ( mustahil, maybe perlu sampan atau kapal berikutan bilangan manusia yang di culik)
Singgah dorm Suju, nak tengok hostel diorang sesak macam mana.
Singah dorm BEG, tinggalkan Jo Kwon dekat situ, paksa kawin dengan Ga-in time tu jugak. It's ok, we are willing to wait. Hyung might wanna kidnap Narsha.
Singgah dorm Kara. Zeti, Syura and me ( esp Zeti) maybe akan jumpa Goo Hara and maybe Zeti might say " Let's be friend". Aku nak cari maknae diorang and bagi warning to stay away from Daesung. Yes.
Singgah kat tempat yang ader Rainbow, rehat sambil tengok pelangi. Penatkan ;)
Yes! 2NEI dorm! Nak cubit pipi Minji and Bommie, tell Dara we don't hate her, we hate her fans so much so please do something about it, and kidnap CL ( Alia in charge).
Last sekali, higlight of the day singgah kat dorm Big Bang. We give GD a hug and say everything will be ok and then serang his wardrobe! Ask GD to date CL (please). Zeti might propose to TaeYang ( but at the same time she has Junho , Chansung and Seulong tied together, she might get confused). Syura pening dengan bilangan ahli 2PM yang banyak di culik sekarang dengan TOP pulak, so Zetty-hyung akan amik alih part proposing to TOP. I'll stay with Daesung and ask him to sing some Maxwell songs to me, and see what else we can do. Twin gushing over GDCL and at the same time ada DooSeob lagi kat situ. Twin mungkin pengsan sebab pening and ayat terakhir dia "bodoh bodoh aa" . Maknae Seungri kena jaga Boss and Gaho.
Stay overnight and tomorrow fly to Seattle to see Park Jaebum aka Pink Laedja

~~Ok I'm creeping myself out now.~~

So how's the plan gals? :P

source

Randomness : Brainwashed cicadas

2010-01-21T07:22:00.008+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. I'm just...lazy eheh...blame twitter seriously

Cicadas

Why are they everywhere now?

That creature look bad-ass and scare the shit out of me eventhough they are harmless.
Might be the second crawling/flying stuff that I hate after lizard huu.

Last Sunday I went to eat Tomyam for dinner at this one restaurant, just to found out later they were everywhere flying. I finished the food a.s.a.p while holding my skirt at the same time (yes sayer takut dier masuk dalam kain uhuk uhuk) and blah cepat cepat.
Yesterday morning, there were two cicadas on my Jinju..uhuk T__T
There's even one cicada sesat in my department.

I have checked on the net and I found this.

Now it make sense -_-

Brainwashed

I got a bit stressful last week about..some news that I heard.
I got brainwashed by papa last week

Y___Y.
I will never trust rumours again.
End of story

I would like to have something like this..

2010-01-15T12:24:00.007+08:00

for my room one day. An art studio.

If only I get back my painting muse yang hilang terus dan tak balik-balik lagi.

xoxo Chuck-going out for lunch

Pic taken from Lynzway@twitpic

Wait..

2010-01-12T11:19:00.002+08:00

they don't love you like I love you.

Wait..
they don't love you like I love you.

Maps.

They don't love you like I love you

I miss this song
xoxo Chuck

yeah yeah yeah - Maps.mp3

yeah yeah yeahs - Maps (Acoustic Strings Version)

The second cutest Capricornian ever!!

2010-01-08T12:13:00.010+08:00

Saya laaa ;PP

Picture tidak dapat di letak sebab takut bloggie tak boleh handle kecomelan noona yang berumur 27 tahun dengan gambar bebudak Korea yang comel.

Dear Chuck,
I Love You

Sila cepat sambung belajar. CEPAT FIGURE THIS OUT!

Sila jangan selalu cepat emo and stressed and depressed. Bertenang.

Jangan kalut ( but hey har har..tak boleh, i have tried, but that is me)

Bila fangirl jangan lupa guling-guling. Basic necessity ;P

Be strong, be thankful, be greatful.

Try not to multitasking a lot. Kamu memeningkan kepala kamu sendiri.

Must try to do one thing at one time.

Find boyfriend. Ye. Baca sekali lagi!

Love yourself before you love others. Take a good care of yourself. Get enough rest.

Be a good listener. Don't cut people off when they are talking, even how excited you want to talk about it.

In general, try to be a better person, a better version of yourself.

Must get back to exercising. You have been skipping all those fine days in Taiping. Cepat lari sebelum hujan start balik~!

Oh yeah, your English skills are getting worst. Aperkah?? Grammar mistake, all kind of mistake. Spelling mistake, Vocab mistake. Lepas tu raser nak katok kepala sendiri. Kenelah bukak buku English balik kan. Harus lah kan.

Oh..reading. Yes continue with that.

Money spending! You have to control your money spending you must try to save every month!! Jangan gembira sangat dengan kad plastik eventhough you know you can pay it back.

Hmm..what else.

Oh yeah! Must travel outside this year. Must.Need.Have to. Go and see the world outside. Anywhere will be ok. Then after that you can go to Korea.

Last but not least

Smile, smile, smile. be kind to people. Respect people. Smile and enjoy life...

(and cute boys.. OMONA!)

xoxo Chuck

The Cutest Capricornian ever!

2010-01-05T09:48:00.018+08:00

You don't know how much I love the fact that this cutie pie is a Capricorn too :DD

( I decided to put only 2 piccis. If too many, I'll get brain explosion, SERIOUSLY. The cuteness is so unbarable ok!)

Today is Yang Yoseob's Birthday.

Funshine, please continue to be ridiculously, insanely adorable and making all the noonas ( including this idiot noona) go crazy with your aegyo and cutesy charm.

Noona also hope that your Joon-ie will spoil you silly on your birthday, because ME LIKE IT!

Marshmallow boy

2010-01-03T00:49:00.007+08:00

Yang rambut dier toncet and blonde tu

Oh Marshmallow sangat hyper dan comel tu! Pening saya tengok apakah!! Can he get any cuter? XD

p/s : but IU is too busy spazzing about Bae lah. Sila balik kepada hyung kamu sekarang!

It is supposed to be a very long random rant and spazzing

2009-12-31T22:33:00.007+08:00

( but I decided to make a boring post)

Hello bloggie.

Sorry lately I've been neglecting you. I'm still on my holiday mode. In 3 days my holiday will be over damnit I do not like *le sigh*. I wanna run away or someone please hide me and then give me some money too (apekah)

In 2 hours, goodbye 2009

Why does it make me feel a bit tad sad. Haish.

What a year you have been. All sorts of things, emotions, feelings, experiences I can't even describe. Overall, it has been a bittersweet year.

In 2 hours, hello 2010

I wish for nothing else. I wish that my beloved family and friends will stay healthy and happy no matter what they do.

I have no new year resolution, I just want to stay healthy, happy and be a better me next year.

Amin.

Happy New Year!

Happy happy holiday!!!!

2009-12-25T09:46:00.002+08:00

mowww..;)

Pening!

2009-12-18T00:21:00.009+08:00

Aaah this two are killing me with their cuteness!!

Dooseob rapping ( or miming) along to Because Of You <3 .
No skinship but I love seeing them rapping to each other, and Yoseobi eagerly showing that LV sign to Dojoon. Ahhh I swear this is like the cutest pairing I ever found. Saya pening!!

ダンス・ダンス・ダンス, Dansu dansu dansu

2009-12-16T16:30:00.009+08:00

"Dance," said the Sheep Man. "You gotta dance. As long as the music plays. You gotta dance. You gotta dance. Don't even think why. Start to think, your feet stop. Your feet stop, we get stuck. We get stuck, you're stuck. So don't pay any mind, no matter how dumb. You gotta keep the step. You gotta limber up. You gotta loosen what you bottled down. You gotta use all you got. We know you're tired, tired and scared. Happens to everyone, okay? Just don't let your feet stop."

I looked up and gazed again at the shadow on the wall.

''Dance in tip-top form. Dance so it all keeps spinning. If you do that, we might be able to do something for you. You gotta dance. As long the music plays."

Dance. As long as the music plays, echoed my mind.

pg 86
Dance Dance Dance
by Murakami

Cough cough

2009-12-14T15:09:00.004+08:00

Ok since I hate that Nilco Benedryl cough syrup yang kat rumah tu ( the taste is nasty) , and I don't want to spend for a new one that taste much better, I decided to try home remedies je.

Since some people I know are still not doing doing well , let us try this:

Mix a cup of honey, three spoonfuls of lemon juice and ¼ cup of warm water. Drink a little bit of it every day.

Brew yourself herb tea with ginger, peppercorn, basil, honey and warm water. Let the herbs steep into the tea before you drink it while it’s still warm. When this brew trickles down your throat, it will sooth your throat and cough, and you will feel better.

Drink green tea with honey

Boil some water with 2 garlic cloves, 1 table spoon of oregano. Pour into a cup add 1 tablespoon of honey and drink.

Yes honey is famous for treating sore throat and chesty cough because of it's natural antibacterial effect.

Lastly, maybe I can try this too:

Inhaling steam is one of the best remedies for chest congestion. You can use a machine that passes out steam or simply boil a large bowl of water, pour it in a basin and then cover your head and inhale the steam. The heat of the steam will help to loosen up some of the hardened phlegm. This loose phlegm is easier to cough up. You can also gargle with warm water and salt twice or thrice a day. That too will help loosen up the phlegm.

And something good to read:
'Don't waste money on shop cough remedies'

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Mak Tok

2009-12-13T20:23:00.008+08:00

I feel kinda bad. I was emotionless this whole morning due to the fact I was never close to her like my other cousins. Sampai rumah grandma, I saw the bed kat ruang tamu, but I just went straight and sit besides my cousin and asked what actually happened. Lepas amik wuduk and nak baca Yasin, my cousin Nadia tanya :

" Nak tengok muka Mak Tok?"

" Okey"

Tengok.
I try hard to remember what were those sweet memories that I used to have with her.

"Nak cium Mak Tok?"

" Aa? Okey"

When I kissed her forehead, I remembered this

Market and apam telur

Putu Mayam

Doraemon comics. Lots of it

Video Games.

Telur Belangkas and Siput Sedut

Sugus and chocolate bentuk duit syiling with wrapper kaler merah and gold

Rendang ayam and ketupat palas

My bad hair cut when I was a kid

Gasing and layang-layang

Beach
" Jangan pegi dekat dengan air ader ular laut"
I dunno if it's true or not

and

" Shuhaida, awat hang nampak gemuk?"
That was masa raya haji , recently.
And the last thing she said to me.

Yes finally I remember and I have something to keep with me now

Al Fatihah untuk Mak Tok.
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.

Anak-anak murid sekalian

2009-12-10T20:19:00.022+08:00

Viruses, including HIV, cannot make copies of
themselves on their own

So what they do?
They invade a healthy cell in your body

CD4 cell - White cell that help the body’s immune system protect you against germs and viruses that can make you sick

There are three types of anti-HIV medications

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Well..

It's easier than this right.

Tulah, my boss (yang bosan gile and takder taste langsung) said that atas tadi tu kiddie stuff. Pastu bila aku bagi talk tengahari tadi, some nurses siap boleh tido kroooh. Aperkah!!

Takper sayer cuba berfikiran optimistik dan positif yang talk saya tak membosankan, mungkin dah pukul 12 and nak lunch time. Mungkin makcik-makcik ni stay up lambat semalam sebab buat kerja rumah, pastu pergi kelas mengantuk. Yer sayer faham perasaan tu sebab dulu pun macam tu. Aaa macam maner kalau nak jadi lecturer one day -__-

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guling-guling aaa <3

2009-12-09T01:36:00.006+08:00

This is an early motivational spanking post.

MUST HAVE ONE FOR TODAY.

yaaa aperkah kecomelan ini!
Anak ikan saya sangat sangat squishable agagaaaa..

<3

The best, sweetest, feeling sorry for yourself song

2009-12-08T09:25:00.003+08:00

Let's get out of this country
I'll admit I am bored with me
I drowned my sorrows and slept around
When not in body, at least in mind
We'll find a cathedral city
You can convince me I am pretty

We'll pick berries and recline
Let's hit the road, dear friend of mine
Wave goodbye to our thankless jobs
We'll drive for miles, maybe never turn off
We'll find a cathedral city
You can be handsome, I'll be pretty

What does this city have to offer me?
Everyone else thinks it's the bee's knees
What does this city have to offer me?
I just can't see
I just can't see

Let's get out of this country
I have been so unhappy
Smell the Jasmine my head was turned
I feel like getting confessional
We'll find a cathedral city you can convince me I am pretty

What does this city have to offer me?
Everyone else thinks it's the bee's knees
What does this city have to offer me?
I just can't see
I just can't see

Thanks for an awesome weekend, miss you guys already

2009-12-08T00:00:00.009+08:00

and yes, how can I forget you
*pat pat*

p/s: Can I edit Wiki by adding in the behaviour section

"Capybara are highly social animals, which are known to randomly appear in boybands karaoke video, an ability they will use to cause a bunch of people go insane and die with laughter"

(aperkah?)

Third time is not the charm

2009-12-05T01:07:00.005+08:00

* cries*

3 kali jumpa and nothing happen.

3 kali jumpa..it's almost feel unreal.

2 minit lagi bas nak jalan, and I was like " aahh..impossible lah 3 times in the row"

Then I saw him, rushing to the bus.

I swear when I saw him, my heart skip, I can't stop myself from grinning stupidly and my brain said, this is sooo impossible..no..no.

Third time I saw him, he was busy looking at the seat number and I..just effing..stare at him..and he didn't see me.

He ended sitting behind me again for the second time.

..and nothing happens. NOTHING. So boleh baling pie sekarang. Believe me, I have all sorts of plans in my head, even when the time my handphone decide to die on the bus ( and I can't make a phone call nak suruh my brother pick me up dekat Pudu), I have this crazy idea like borrowing his hp to make a phone call (eeeps..but yeah)

The thing is, it's not easy to make a conversation. It's awkward nak pusing belakang and start making a conversation. Then bila sampai kat Pudu, he always lesap too quick!! Nak je cakap, " Hey, you stop! Say something???"

I feel like I'm chasing stranger yang selalu tak nampak.

(or buat-buat tak nampak? )

or memang dah lupa.

and aku je yang ingat.

Maybe I should just give up.

ahh..kalau setiap kali balik KL macam ni, T__T

-frust, confused, ughhhh-

What did I get myself into

2009-11-29T11:14:00.047+08:00

It is bound to happen one day though.

This is Leader Dojoon

This is Carebear Yoseob

My two bias from BEAST, together they make a squishable maknae-hyung pairing named Dooseob. These two are like my instant happy pills right now.

<3<3

YES...the things I get myself into. I'm leading a demanding life at the moment ( UGHHH demanding life be damned!!) . It's like have more time for this, I already have my Big Bang and some 2PM boys to spazz. Laptop pun dah takde space ughh.. But but... they are so cute! How can you not fall for boys being cute to each other and and..( ok shut up)

I can't help but like it! :P

And that is all

And finally... picspams!!!

(yes they are squishable jajajaja)

XD

ok dah dah Chuck
I need to stop spamming!
...............................................

out of topic but

This is for Zetty hyung and Shan

@%%##!!!!!!

Fellow VIP's, do not kill us.
Thanks.

Off to do house chores

what is this freaking cute nonsense stuff you're talking about honey?

2009-11-26T00:05:00.020+08:00

Your favourite part of your physical appearance?

Dae: My pinky finger. In Korea they said that if you paint your pinky nail in summer and it lasts until the first snowfall, you will experience true love. Look, mine's still here.

Vivi magazine interview

But but bb... noona nyer tempat takder snow!

Hujan banjir sepanjang tahun je kat sini.

Macam maner nak apply theory ni?

Pastu..why so hopeless romantic lately? Baca love novel? Nak cook for your gf?

Tak membantu.

Kenapa saye membebel ni?
"malu"

geram

saya lapar Kimchi

fin

Epicsm

2009-11-24T20:33:00.010+08:00

single action or happening that pushes the limits of 'awesomeness' into
the realms of inexplicable fleeting brilliance

We were the kings and queens of promise.
We were the phantoms of our selves.

wah! all of my favourite bands are coming back.
thank god they don't make me feel old lol
.....................................................

Life is good so far.

(well..if I have more time to read and do painting..sigh)

For the time being, I can't do anything about my hectic life.
Need to be patience and just suck. it. up.

I tasted Kimchi for the first time last Saturday.
Taiping sucks, they don't have Kimchi in Tesco.
Not epic at all yo.

No concert to watch this year?
It's ok I guess. because I have that "K-pop night" with friends last Saturday.
That atmosphere was totally...can I call it "Epicsm" too? LOL
I almost lose my voice laughing and screaming.
Although the show could be better, it was overall an awesome night!

Fin

Vampirism

2009-11-20T15:31:00.012+08:00

no..I'm not talking about Edward Cullen.

This are the real vampires that I always love.

Yes they are back! ( well almost)

2010 PLEASE COME QUICK!
and I'm going to hunt this magz!

Re-learned

2009-11-17T18:35:00.018+08:00

...learn something again, as after having forgotten or neglected it

LIFE ISN'T FAIR.
IT'S A BUMMER, BUT IT'S ABSOLUTELY TRUE.

But I also believe that HARD WORK PAYS. So how?

Perhaps.. it's still not enough?

My KMK ( Kualiti Mutu Kerja) project titled" Peningkatan Tahap Kontaminasi Sampel Urin untuk ujian "Urine C&S" lose again in the KMK Convention at the hospital level. Last time we lose at the state level. Ughh...the frustration, because honestly and truthfully, I have worked hard for it, like freaking hard it feels like finishing a thesis paper okey. Yeah, I said I don't want any prize to prove that I did a good job. Yes, I lied. I have set a target. I have targeted that at least we will get (at least) the third place. I even imagining myself( yes, again) going up on the stage receiving the trophy and the money!! The taste of appreciation. The group that won the third place is just...freaking..WTH! *fuming*..( ok jangan mengutuk Chuck..enough).

Lesson #1 : Do not underestimate other people, no matter how suck they are. Judges might like them..because..

Lesson #2 : Judges are only human. ~~They also love "Pantun" and lagu "Anuar Zain" as an intro. They don't like your Maxwell "Phoenix Tise" stuff Chuck, even if it's an ass kicking intro song( to you)~~.

Maybe another lesson to learn is that I need to lower my expectation and not to have high hopes over something. ( sighh.. that's always the case with me)

But I found this quote:

“Don't lower your expectations to meet your performance. Raise your level of performance to meet your expectations. Expect the best of yourself, and then do what is necessary to make it a reality.”-Ralph Marston

I love this^. So what I did was right..kan kan.

I honestly think that we did a great job better than the group. Fullstop. the end. Fin! It's okey.I've done my best and I need to hug myself now.

Next year, still the group leader( yes die -__-') with a set of new members, we'll kick the judges ass!

Okey..when was the last time I did this?

2009-11-16T23:02:00.009+08:00

....ahh nevermind.

Aishh bb..must you exagerrate the dance move?
Your Jiyong hyung has been teaching you guys right?

SOMEONE NEED TO BE SPANKED BY A HAPPY NOONA ! XD
( totally understand Bae's feeling now when he spanked maknae)

..and get out of the way woman!!!!

New motto

2009-11-13T21:34:00.006+08:00

Chuck will work for a new shiny handphone

She will work for the white one.

December please come quick!!

Listen to my Heartbeat.

2009-11-11T13:26:00.023+08:00

SOURCE: Bestiz

Nichkhun: "last but not least, our 2pm members...even though we have lost one of the biggest parts of our lives...Jay...wherever you are..know that we couldn't have gotten this far without you.. we always hope that you are well and healthy.. and we're always missing you... hoping one day we can all sit down and laugh at what had happened in our lives... until then, WE WILL make you PROUD."
...........

I know..

7 minus 1 equals to 0.

( but it's still a number...right :-I )

..but these boys are so strong without their leader, I have to give them props for that. I feel bad for them since the K-Hottest are going to continue to boycott their new album. Poor boys.

Anyway..this MV/Song/ THE DANCE ROUTINE is just EPIC! They look so good and cool in this vid too.

It's a bitterweet kinda song, it's mad catchy and it gives this goosebump feeling everytime I listen to it. That overwhelming emotion ugh. Yeah the only sad part is that.. for some reasons, the song has Jaebum's name written all over it in "BOLD CAPITAL LETTERS". I can see it.

Listen to my heartbeat..it's waiting for you. Ok get it? JYP ughh why? We don't need a theme song now =(

Can't wait for their comeback this weekend!

I can do so much better than this T__T

2009-11-11T01:10:00.015+08:00

PTK 1_Exam Umum ( 9.30 pg -12 tengahari)

I didn’t even touch the government book, read any of the notes. I was sleeping in the van all the way to Ipoh while others sibuk baca. I'm just too lazy ( and how can you read in that bumpy car)

Soalan keluar, I can goreng it. Just logic and common sense. A friend said, they don’t want logic or common sense, the people want the answer exactly like the one in the books or notes, unless if the answer asked for your opinion. And I said...I thought all those questions, semua tanya opinions. Bagaimanakah mengurangkan perbelanjaan di peringkat jabatan, pada pendapat anda, apa program yang boleh di jalankan untuk meningkatkan kualiti mutu pegawai perkhidmatan awam. Tu bukan tanya opinion meh? Ahhh...dah tak heran. Because I was targetting for this paper..

PTK_Exam Khusus ( 2.00-4.30 petang)

I’m a bit frustrated actually. I never thought the questions are far more simple and straight forward. Kalau tahu macam ni, saya..( study? Chuck..basic tak payah study, you should know it already -__-) Although I can answer almost all of those questions, I think I can do much better than this ( like 3 years ago in U). I was busy revising on how to diagnose H1N1, Strep Pyogenes, what antibiotics are suggested to use for this bacteria bla bla bla. Tetiba soalan keluar..

Apakah proses pensterilan?

Apakah itu disinfektan?

Bezakan dinding gram positive bakteria dan dinding gram negative bakteria.

Terangkan prinsip ELISA

If you guys want to know, these are all basic Microbiology questions. Mende basic first year! I never thought these questions will be asked again. 3 years ago, mesti laju aku jawab. Nampak sangat dah lupa all the basics, pastu sibuk nak study yang advance. Ughh. Boleh jawab..but again, when I think of it again, damn I can do better than this!

Pastu perkara yang paling frust.

( This is the last question and I’m almost flat and pikir nak balik tido dah time tu, I was dead tired)

Seorang pesakit telah di syaki menghidapi penyakit "Sexually Transmitted Disease(STD)". Sampel swab urethra di ambil, dan pewarnaan "gram stain' di jalankan. Gram negatiF dipolococci bakteria telah di perolehi. Apakah bakteria tersebut dan bagaimanakan proses pengkulturan di jalankan.

I answered Haemophilus Influenzae and dengan confident nye menjawab sampai halfway. I am so confident and I am excited because I study this! Tetiba bila dah almost nak siap, “Ehh, Infulenzae? But dier kene STD!. But, it's a gram negative diplo! Ehhhh..?? s***, H. Influenzae Gram negative cocco, bukan diplo!” Than I realised dah hampir nak mengabis mengarang, the answered is actually Neisseria Gonorrhoeae, and....how to diagnose Neisseria Gonorrohoeae again? Okey..I totally don’t remember. And only 10 minutes left. T___T

Ok it’s not easy as I thought. Wait... it is easy, but what happened?

Well at least now I know..

Well..

2009-11-09T23:41:00.031+08:00

Well hello..look what we have here?

Congratulation for making a debut in my blog Yoseob.
Memang bakal menyusahkan aku lepas ni ugh -__-'

(Daesungie, don't get mad ok, still can't beat you bb ok, he's cute and adorbs, you cute and sexy, see the difference? :PP )

p/s: Ok it's official, it's clear that I always favour: cute + boyish charm + fun + outgoing + beautiful smile.

Not my fault..kan? K-POP, YOU WIN, HAPPY NOW??

when love & hate collide

2009-11-08T11:45:00.010+08:00

LOVE

HATE

dusty and still untouched

So how?

2 days left
( and why must it be in essay format ugh)

Ah shoot...

2009-11-07T21:07:00.010+08:00

2.07 : Budak blonde bernama Yoseob ini makin tidak membantu nghghhhhh..

Ridiculously adorable

The neverending fanservice with his Dojoon hyung ( Dooseob anyone?)

His voice is not bad too.

WTH aaaaa aper ni !

K-POP..NICE TRY OK!!!!

But honestly they are like..my current guilty pleasure lol! Cannot be help hee.

( Chuck sensing that she's in trouble dun dun dun)

Welcoming version 4.0

2009-11-07T04:05:00.012+08:00

I am supposed to study for my PTK exam errkk.

But yeah..this is what I end up doing, making my own banner for the first time ever using adobe.

I wish I have a clearer pic of Dae from the 声をきかせて vid. I just print-screened it from the vid and it's not that HQ. I'm not sure wether I should stick with a lighter background or this dark grey background. But I guess the dark background fits with the banner ( but it does feel awkward to use dark background again)

Well anyway...drumroll please..

Welcoming version 4.0!!

( yeahh so much time in hand Chuck)

OkneedtosleeplikeNOW!! and study tomorrow huk!

...

Cotton balls and chewbacca

2009-11-06T15:04:00.017+08:00

Giant cotton balls

Pendarfluor and bro( geez I should called you Chewbacca)

...

I come back too soon lol 0__O
talk about being dramatic
(wtf)
oh well..

M.I.A for awhile

2009-11-05T12:56:00.021+08:00

I won't be updating for awhile because I have nothing much to say lately.
Life force me to be monotonous, so I will let it be monotonous for the time being.

It's ok, I'll be harassing people's blog,my twitter and facebook.

For the time being, my adorable boys and their cuteness will take care of my blog while I am away

<3

I'll be back soon bloggie.

Dear boss..

2009-11-03T23:11:00.010+08:00

Happy November people.

My November started in a very interesting way when my boss decided to merajuk and left the meeting bila semua orang tak nak terima idea dia hari ni. The rest of the AJK terlopong and me and my colleagues were like *sigh*.

Dear boss, saya baru nak start respect awak, seriously. Tetiba buat perangai tak professional hari ni, wth boss. Kamu tu dah lah doktor pakar okey, specialist pangkat tinggi, ahh rupanya tak guna juga pangkat tinggi and pangkat doc kalau perangai macam ni. Baguslah, people will start to feel awkward with you after this. People will start to say " Ya Dr, saya setuju, we are okey with all of your ideas". Ahh bagus..bekerja dalam suasana budaya korporat, nilai nilai murni and profesionalism. Saya sangat suka boss!!

Lagipun department kita sebelum ni memang tak pernah ada dramaswasta yang menarik, maybe boss boleh start dulu. My working life will be more interesting after this.

Good luck BOSS!!!