lost and found

lost a lot of things

found peace

Pray everyday that Allah cure me from sadness and emptiness, and make sleep peacefully at night.

It's been 2 months and 4 Days.

Hello..

Just came here to pay a visit.

How are you doing bloggie?

Should I revive you back?

1.39pm

In need of more Paramore.

It has been 5 days. I still got a hangover.

It was a great great great night!

Please come back. I have never feel so alive for a long time.




..and Hayley, she's amaaaazing.

I hate you.



I HATE YOU JUNHYUNG Y MUST U BE THIS HOT

*run away*

weekend is good indeed





well i say..pure relaxing and therapeutic

The thing is..

I never like yellow.

I detest the color yellow!

I never have...yellowish stuff!!

Yellow reminds me of corn ( but I don't hate corn! yes i'm not making sense)

I don't know what happened today.



yes my lame attempt/excuse to post my own picture.

oh hello bloggie, you miss me? Going to make a makeover on you one day

I MAKE EVERYTHING YELLOW MUAHAHA

ok ignore me , i kinda just miss this place :P

xoxo chuck
Yes, I almost forgot to update this. Nak update pun dah basi buuut..takper alang alang dah buat karangan sampai several parts huu, I think I better finished it. Wait I even forgot the details of the fansigning. Well...let me see what I remember..

Me and Alia Dooseob gift! I want to give it directly to Doojoon and Yoseob, like a pair doodolls like this, but it got taken away by their staff. I hope you guys got it huu. ( lol we even make a card that compile all the dooseob's fan message from other part of the world

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I realised my two bias didn't sit besides each other. Huu my Dooseob paparazzi radar just drop another level. Uaa. Ok, first I pass Junhyung. While signing the cd I was like, SHIT HE IS FREAKING HOT IN PERSON WHAT IS THIS SMIRK YOU JUST GAVE ME!! Seriously fangirling in my head because...OMG IT'S JUNHYUNG OKAY!!Then I pass Dongwoon, and he smiled, maknae is so handsome and he keeps on smiling to everyone. Too bad I can't recalled my moment with AJ because..

Damn as soon I saw Doojoon ( who is sitting besides AJ ), I was like..omg this is they guy who's been dubbed as the "Nation Idol Boyfriend" or something. I tell you Doojoon is so handsome, good looking, flawless, perfect, SO GENUINELY NICE AND FRIENDLY we even chat a bit ( although I can't remember wth we were chatting about but he kept on saying thank you) and I'm trying my best not to stare at his V-Neck shirt nggghhh. I think I kinda stand in front of Doojoon for quite sometimes because he is the most interactive member ( or maybe I'm just amazed on how good looking he is huuu >__> ). Then the guard ask me to move so I walk in front of Hyunseung ( I remember he already has his pixie hair with that tiny hair band) so freaking pretty and gorgeous! Last but not least, I finally arrived in front of my no 1 bias, the ever perfect,adorable, sweet cutie pie Yang Yoseob. He is so polite and soft spoken. LOL I think I said something in Korea ( Alia teached me but I forgot it now) but something like "Yoseob, I adore you, you're my favourite" or something like that? OMG ok now it sounds cheesy ( but I hope it doesn't sound cheesy in hanggul kut) then he kept on saying thank you and smile.Everything went so fast, we can't even shake hands which is not fair ( which I don't actually mind too because of the thought that I'm going to see them during the fan meet and greet session)

However, I do end up skipping like a silly fangirl as soon I got my signed CD aaaa what is this what have you guys done i'm a freaking adult okay *is embarassed thinking about it now* but what I never know is that the next day I will end up like a crazy happy fangirl, much worse than this. Yes I am such a major failure uaa -___-''



will update later about the greet and meet session ( which I don't know when huu)

Ok yeah then we are finally in, and found a good spot on the left side of the stage, 4 rows from the stage. There's this big tv screen in front of us ( which I thought it's good because we can watch the boys from the tv if it's in case we can't clearly see them on the stage) While waiting for the crowd to fill the hall, Cube's MV were played on the tv screen, first I think is Shock. We were these kraaazy fangirls/fanboys singing to along the song LOL alongside with other Beast MV ( Bad Girl, Say No) and 4 minute FML o yeah.

So when the boys come out, O__O sayer tidak terkata gembiranyer. Busy taking pictures and fancams. The boys are :') aaaaa I got to see them live!! Saya dah tak larat nak spazz but I totally enjoying it, I mean..HEY THAT IS THEM LIVE ON THE STAGE ! Have been oggling about them on the net, watching MVs, performance, reality shows and stuff, so seeing the live is all sort of surreal.

Almost all the boys came on the left side of the stage, Except for Yoseob bb.
Hyunseung came to our side most of the times ( and I even got a good fancam of him, fancam sangat daebak I love it ^^) Too bad there's no Dooseob ( there is but I dodn't got a chance to witness it)

I LOVE THIS FANCAM OF MINE BECAUSE OF HYUNSEUNG :')




The only annoying part is..ok I don't mind the pushing the pulling ( and the screaming too) I mean well what do you expect from a K-pop showcase full with fangirls but ughhh..this girl in front of me, her hair! it keep on brushing my face sangat distracting. Die macam..melekat kat muke saya yang dah oily ni. Serabut seh..

Pictures spamming jelah ye. But most are not mine ( since my picture turn out to be shitty quality eventhough pakai Canon yaa
). I fully credit the owner of the picture, is just thatI forgot where did I get all of this pictures from. Sorry >.<

Dooseob heee ^^


Junhyung sangat hott ok and maknae Dongwoon is flawless and so good looking!


Yoseob comel sangat in person! nak picit pipi dia XP

This is mine..the quality kinda suck >.<








o hay leader! fixing your hair I see *roll eyes*


those two maknae were doing selca on stage during oasis XP


Doojoon said shoooh! :P


Comel ok. Sangat.


oh em gee guyline kiwi soo pretty ^^


Sangat hott apakah !! Ugh Junhyung


maknae Dongwoonie!!

Ok too many photo spamming so I decide to post the fansigning part in the next post ( lol which I don't know when >.<) . Tungguuu...

Beast is my first K-POP experience weeehee!! :D

Well.. actually I have incoherently spazzed typed about this event in other forum, but then suddenly I decided that I need to report/or write this sweet awesome memory here too, in my own blog , because it is full with awesome sweet memories and this one need to be included in this blog too. ( walaupun sebenarnyer agak malas nak buat karangan, but I regret not doing that when I watched MCR 3 years ago, so I better typed it down)

So this will be a long 3 part karangan. Brace yourself muahahhah -__-;;


Credits go to ineed-munny.blogspot.com and railroad-of-japan.blogspot.com for the nice pictures ( since I didn't take a lot of pictures and the quality kind of suck)

Waiting in line for Beast Showcase.

WAITING IN LINE IS JUST T_____T aka saya takut nak pergi konsert K-POP

Woke up early, wore my Beast t-shirt and settle all the house chores so my parents tak bising that I'll be missing for that one whole day. Beli breakfast, babysitting dan sebagainya. I was already giddy like ngeeee...jjcxhekqhzuyzui!! Sekian. nervous and excited!!

1.30pm

Arrived at KL LIVE! ( I took Putra LRT and stop at Dang Wangi) and the place is already full! Saw the big banner outside of the building, ok sangat daebak!! Starting to get all excited woot!'



Like I said, the place is already full . Fans were making posters, eating KFC, spazzing, etc etc. I called Kim and finally met her. She was extremely nice and sweet. Spazzing kejap pasal mende2 random and tengok present Dooseob present that me and Alia plan to give ( yes we bought a cute plushies for them kkekke:P). Then we saw a group of girls holding a Beast flag, so kami pun menyibuk bertanya mana kami boleh dapat that cute flag.



Me and my Hyunseung flag that I randomly picked from MyB2uty people


This is Kim. She got Yoseob's flag. Then she even got Junhyung's flag, randomly junper kat maner ntah, not fair aaa :P)


Bak kata Junhyung " We are happiness" -___-''
( yes Junhyung dah merosakkan lagi english saya yang dah sedia rosak)

3.00pm

Around 3 pm, the Universal Music Malaysia representatives (UMM) organize a lucky draw where 150 fans who got to draw a yellow ball from a box ( full with white balls) got a chance to meet the boys at Nikko Hotel on Sunday ( the next day). Haruslah saya cuba nasib kan, dah haruslah saya kene berhimpit dengan budak-budak dan orang ramai untuk tunggu turn. -___- ( the thing that I do for the boys nghh).

Of course this is one of the highlight of the day. The best and daebak thing ever... winning an effing lucky draw ( whoaa, ok whenever i thought about that again I will always end up like this 0__O how can that happened?). When I draw that yellow ball, I just..stare at it, disbelief, whaaaaaat? I didn't even scream, I was so shocked! ( orang-orang belakang yang jerit boleh?). Kesimpulannyer..OMG I GOT TO SEE THE BOYS! AGAIN! TOMORROW! MEET AND GREET! OMG :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WHAAAT IS THIS WOOH!

and after that..

We continue to wait..

Stuck in the middle of a sea of people.


this sea of 2000++ people


( saya tiada si dalam gambar)

Everyone refuse to move anywhere, takut dapat tempat yang tak best dalam hall. So we stand..and stand..panas, diselangi oleh bunyi fangirls screaming (sebab they said Beast sampai dalam van? erk?) stand and wait..stuck...kene tolak skit skit..terpisah from Kim , Bawang and the rest, sedih bosan..tunggu lagi, saya bosan -__-'', I can not move, if I move people will say I'm pushing people, ( even nak amibil air from the bag and even nak makan twiggies Gardenia), my body is distorted in a weird angle. End up chatting with new friends yang stuck around me ( high school kids, university kids (budak UM ), mak orang seriously, FANBOYS COMEL!! ) . Everytime the crowd start to move, saya kena quished, stuck, push, pull oh what the heck. Orang cakap "jangan tolak! Don't push!!" I'm old for this. Can I go to a K-pop concert and skip this queing part?..gila daebak terseksa.



The event sepatutnya start at 7pm. So bila dah 6.30 om tak masuk lagi, I was like...apakah?? I was standing besides the stairs. People from excited dah start merungut. Around 7 .30 pm, people dah start bising. Sorak "refund! refund!" or "We want Beast!! We Want Beast!" or " T-shirt First! T shirt first" ( meaning people who wore Beast t-shirt enter the hall first). Pukul 8pm tak masuk lagi, people dah cranky, boo-ing, and it doesn't help when the UMM people ( yang tak bawak microphone ke apa) start screaming and asked us to calm down. Not helping seriously.

But seriously, UMM you fail ok. Please improve this. Around 8 pm you started to get some girls fainting ( sebab penat and tak makan ok) and the number started to increase. Sucky event management . Nasib baik our small group of people ( I was reunited again Kim and the rest) menepek tepi tangga dan cuba menceriakan hati sambil menyanyi lagu K-pop seperti Big Bang, Beast, T-ara dsb untuk menghilangkan tension.




Pintu masuk sangat kecik boleh? Pastu kena panjat tangga pulak tu. Imagine 2000++ people -__-''

Around 8.40 pm I think, finally the crowd start to move. Sangat terseksa my goodness, there was no line, we were pushed and squished ( boleh kurus macam ni T__T) , and people semua berkerumun kat tangga kecik tu. Body guard screaming, muka fans sorang sorang macam nak nangis bila dapat panjat naik tangga. I almost lose my shoes ok. 37 peoples faint. O yeahh..it's K-POPs showcase woot! Konsert MCR and P!ATD pun tak se-daebak ni key. Tetiba teringat kalau kawan-kawan saya yang lain datang, I can guarantee that they won't stand it.

So akhirnya dah dapat masuk. Kawan saya yang jalan dengan saya menangis-nangis, siap ada cameraman nak rakam muka die but I shoved the camera. Dramatic kan? Macam K-pop jugak. Sigh..

But of course...as soon as we got in, we totally forgot about what had happened before :)